the end of a chapter

For the past 6 birthdays, my wish stayed the same: to graduate college.  technically, i only have 38 days until i reach that day and by then, a lot of things shall be over.  i even said that the moment i graduate is one of the few happiest moments in my life.  weirdly enough, selfish or unselfish as i may sound, i sometimes wish that time would stop.  and in some parallel universe, i could take my rest, go back to all my hobbies and enjoy them while i'm on my 38th to the last day. 

I miss fun. I miss simple fun.  I miss counting days while cherishing them. now i'm counting days AND dreading them.

i wish that i have an actual agenda on what to fulfill or achieve while counting my college days. like:

Go to the beach.
Party or chill the whole night.
Drink coffee in cool air.
Bike my worries away.
Run another race.
Have a food trip.
Watch movie in 3d.
Read a pocket book
Watch a play.
Walk around the campus.
 and i guess many more as long as it spells SPONTANEITY.

maybe i could do more of these after i graduate, but it will be harder to break the rules.
i would need more valid reasons to be absent, to be fed up, to let go. 

oh well, it's the end of a chapter soon. somehow, maybe i could twist my story and i could still achieve all of these. at least, older and much wiser. and FREE.
finally, it's all about me.